i just got the temptation to continue ephedra so i can "get skinny quickly" but if i go 100% raw starting tomorrow, i will get SKINNY QUICKLY. EVEN MORE SO. AND I WILL FEEL 100000 TIMES BETTER THAN USING EPEHDRA. AND ILL LOOK BETTER TOO.

i am going to join gold's gym tomorrow or all sport so i can take classes.

I AM GOING TO DO THIS

if i could , i would go on a juice fast for 30 days....but since i currently have a job...that won't allow me to do that. however, i am going to drink veggie and fruit juices as much as possible. i think i may have broken my juicer, and i also want to buy a vita-mix blender.
i read about a lady who lost 30 pounds in 30 days of being raw.

seriously, all that food is poison. and some people are blessed with bodies that allow them to put whatever they want in them and not gain a pound. but im not like that. its how you play the cards, not about what cards you are dealt with.

I AM NOT TURNING BACK. THIS IS NOT A LIFE-LONG DECISION. I AM DOING THIS FOR 30 DAYS, AND IM PRETTY SURE I WILL WANT TO STICK WITH IT.

30 DAYS IS ALL I HAVE TO DO RIGHT NOW.

THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO LOOK LIKE:
http://s5.photobucket.com/albums/y155/afitch107877/tspira/?action=view&current=PDR_0057.jpg

change cannot come overnight. but the more i educate myself and try to incorporate these lifestyle changes into my life, the better off i will be and i will reach my goals with time.

patience really is a virtue.

i do not want to continue living feeling this way. junk food and processed food and stuff is not making me happy. it is just a DRUG. seriously, when do i ever actually feel good after eating, say, reeses cereal?? the feeling of goodness after drinking a vegetable juice or some fruit, that cannot be compared to the full, disgusting, fat, gross feeling after eating CRAP.

why do this to myself? why am i putting myself through this? i look all around me and all i see are unhappy, fat, disgusting looking people. the potential of beauty is crazy, if only people changed what they put in their mouths.

society is seriously centered around eating and junk food. the cause of all our health and physical and mental problems are the things that people do every single day..and they dont even know it.

i dont want to be like everybody else. i want my body to function the way it was intended to. i want to look the best i can physically. i want to feel the best i can.

will write later